Stream of Consciousness

I have no idea what to write so I’m going to write what I’m thinking. I’m thinking on how happy I am that me and my boyfriend are about to be a year and that even though we have our differences and we have fights that are really dumb we are still together and yet happy like the first day we decided to be together and be a couple. I’m still shocked that we are about to be a year it feels like its at least three to four months we’ve been in this relationship.

I’m also thinking that I should get a job to help my mom out since she’s not going to be able to work for much longer since she is three months pregnant. We are so happy that my stepdad is going to be a father for the first time. He says that we are his kids too but not like the baby because the baby has his blood and we don’t. He’s like our dad so that’s why he says that the baby isn’t his first child. We really want it to be a boy because we are all girls and we need a baby brother. I need to get a job so I can help out in the house because my mom is going to be taking care of the baby most of the time so it’s going to be up to me to help out around the house.

I’m thinking that I really badly want to see Alice in Wonderland on Friday because I love Tim Burton’s movies and the way Johnny Depp acts because he gets into character and makes them seem real. I also want to see it because it makes me feel like a little kid once more. After someone turns sixteen everything changes because a bit more because of the responsibility that is added onto their shoulders. I also want to see it because it looks like a creepy gothic princess movie. My little sisters want me to take them to watch it because they say that they also want to watch it since it’s the return of Alice to Wonderland and it looks as if theirs going to be a lot of action and drama.

I’m thinking that I shouldn’t be sad because I’m surrounded by people who love me a lot and yet that I shouldn’t miss people who say they love and care for me when they don’t cause it’s a really painful feeling. I miss my dad a lot but yet I don’t want to because he’s not worth it at all. He would be worth me missing him if he did or would do anything to deserve for us to miss us but he doesn’t do that at all. He should have at least told my aunt to wish me a happy birthday but he didn’t even remember that my birthday was on Saturday. I really wish that he would have wished me a happy birthday but he didn’t. It’s like a really sad thing for me because he’s my father and yet he didn’t care so I shouldn’t care either.

I’m thinking that people should try to be happy and try to forget all the bad things that have ever happened to them because people shouldn’t live through memories they should live on the today never on what has happened to them because it’s not worth living in something that hurts you. I know this because I’ve learned that with the people that are around me tell me and I know that it’s going to take a while to realize that sometimes things happen for a reason. In the end it’s always for a really good reason because people get to grow as persons and to make sure they make don’t make the same mistakes or try to act a different way towards life because it’s not always a bad thing to be a good person.